Look into my heart;;

Monday, April 5, 2010

3:31 AM

Aiyah!! Sowriee I cant blggie cuz or rent .
Ill be back as soon as possible .
Email me @ loversintheraain@gmail.com or eunirox@hotmail/gmail
Luvv yuhh’s
Miss yuhh . :(
Don’t leave me lonely ;O
This is the ugliest post ever ;o ...no time to edit...rent watchng..DD; bye .

i will never let you go (:

Monday, March 29, 2010

10:16 PM

Type here dumbo;;

IM NOT MARGE. OKAY. IM MARIANNE.

dee hax hereeee~ //.

...how can i ruin euni's page.. hmmm..

AAAABBBBBBBBCCCCCCCCCCCCC (random spam)

bye bye.

euni says: "type more. or forever hold ur spam."

i say: "i choose to hold my spam."

euni will kill yuhh >DD buwhahaha . *stab stab*

lolz marge *bleed bleed*

gonna watch alice in wonderland in 3D... mwahahhaa... >.>"

euni again; im guna kill barb DD<>

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[spam ended]

i will never let you go (:

10:04 PM

Your luv ish just a lie;;

Seems lyk evryfing is just a big fat ugly lie. Kyohei lied. Friends lie. Why lie? Don’t sya yuuh caree if yuhh lie2me cuz ur luv ish just a big FAT lie. Don’t yuhh feel guilty wen yuhh stab me in the back. Don’t u know that evry lie tears us further apart? >~<>yuhh wudnt understand. Yuh only care4yourself. Yooh’ve neva been bullied, hurt and heart broke as I hv. Your nothing but a lie. And yooh destroy my dreams, my world…You interude and destroy.

Youu say that I dnt kno youu but do youu know me? Youu thing you do. But you know me less than Angell, Dee or Sylv do. And these awshum guys only met me half a year ago or so…they are true friends n.n. True friends make my life seem worth living. Youu only destroy my life and bring misery into my life…

So its better if we neva met. If we cut and separate our paths here…Im sorry…~~friend~~ liar.

Life is like a ‘liar game’, but im not going to let this go on any longer…

…

Our friendship and luv was ~~supposed~~ to last froeva…

[sign off .]

i will never let you go (:

9:54 PM

Leave me ALONE…

Some things in lyf shd remain a secret. If there’s one lesson I’ve? learnt in life it’s that; if something is broken, sometimes it’s best to leave it and not try to fix it…Like my heart…

>O> . Friends ~~foreva~~pshh. Friends hurt uu. Blame uu./ And they lie…and still say, ‘You can trust me!’ . Pft . =o= as if~ They leave uu wen uu need them most . Abandon yuhh .

Besties don’t .

And theres no point really in trusting them anymore, telling them anything…

Yuhh use to tell them ur dreams bh they’d just laugh and say, ‘oh yea, me too….when I was a KID!’ and make yuhh feel lyk all u lived 4 was childish fantasy . They are shallow and selfish and know more than themselves. They thing they are hurt but inside it’s killing yuhh. I just wish they’d STFU, stop lying and LEAVE ME ALONE. They say, ‘ily’ bh its empty words…They r hypocrites, two faced and live as though they dnt hav a conscience, a heart…

Cold, lifeless, selfish beings .

What is tru friendship?

Broken dreamer .

i will never let you go (:

Friday, March 26, 2010

12:24 AM

o-o;;

Aw. Fork man. From now on I srsly need2be nerdy 8(
I fail much lah~ Like epic-ly fail.
Buh I’ll still blog ;) Luv uu ~~lame~~cheese bums ;3

Bh im still trying to piece myself 2gether…Looking back;; I realise…yuuh were always trying to show off, trying to be a ‘rebel’ being someone u weren’t and swearing 24/7 lyk an idiot. I thought yuhh were deeper than dat on the inseide. No. Yurr shallow and yuh always wer. But…yurr lies were deep and I got caught in ur web of lies [>~<] Even I was more rebellious than uu, uu fake lameass. You were just…a doofus. I felt sorry 4 yuhh, fell 4 yuhh…But I can still tell yuhh now;; back then, I’d hav cared 4 yuhh 100x more than ur friends did. But you rejected me. So good luck making friends that care and are tru lyk I ~~was~~.

I wudnt hv turned away bh all uu did was drag me in2 more sorrow wen wat I rlly needed was sunshine + happiness to escape the sorrow. And…I can tell you now…Your life is truly SAD. I cud’ve brought yuhh happiness bh…its too late .

Goodbye, my ~~fake manga prince kyohei~~ ~~‘friend’~~ stranger, nice meeting yuhh…n.n

And although I neva rlyy was ur friend im glad im not a fake friend.
So…cya ~~jerk~~stranger :) …And…good luck although u hurt me. God help uu.

xx-shadowed.night-xx

i will never let you go (:

Thursday, March 25, 2010

11:53 PM

Broken ray of hope;;

A heavy cloud masks my face. Im alone in this world. Who will help me? Noone.

Im desperate.

Living on my last drop of hope + happiness .

Nothing to look forward to.

My life’s a total drama . Not a fun, happy ending drama. A sad ending dama.

All that’s left of me is false strings of hope…

You broke me. You looked down on me. Didn’t think I was good enough…Didn’t think I was worth it. Me? I thought youu were everything…even wen u lied to me so many times…but just not this time.

I’ve had enough. I’m not good enough4yuhh. Find someone hu will bother to luvv yuuh as much as I did. But yuhh’ll neva find sum1 hu luv’d uu like me. Cus I loved uu likee romeo loved Juliet, and I loved yuuhh like I was born to love yuhh…

I reached out. You pushed me away. I kept coming back. But I was pushed away again, everytime with more scars. Everytime seemed to hurt more.

But ur not better than me. And im neva guna be 'good enough' for youu cuz im better than uu. And I’ll prove it. Sumday, lyk in the song ‘sk8erboi’ yuh’ll look back and regret. And I’ll show yuhh hu I rlly am, hu I rlly can be and this time I wont b the one that’s guna get hurt. Cuz im sick and tired of being ‘just that girl noone notices’ and the one hu always gives and always gets hurt.

…

heres the lyrics of sk8erboi and my happy ending ;3 It’s lyk my lyf in a song ;p

Sk8erboi;;

He was a boy,
she was a girl
Can I make it anymore obvious?
He was a punk,
she did ballet
What more can I say?
He wanted her,
she'd never tell
secretly she wanted him as well.
But all of her friends stuck up there nose
they had a problem with his baggy clothes.
He was a skater boy,
she said see ya later boy
he wasn't good enought for her
She had a pretty face,
but her head was up in space
she needed to come back down to earth.
five years from now,
she sits at homef
eeding the baby
she's all alone
she turns on tv
guess who she sees
skater boy rockin' up MTV.
she calles up her friends,
they already know
and they've all got tickets to see his show
she tags along and stands in the crowd
looks up at the man that she turned down.
He was a skater boy,
she said see ya later boy
he wasn't good enought for her
now he's a super starslamin' on his guitar
does your pretty face see what he's worth?
sorry girl but you missed out
well tough luck that boys mine now
we are more than just good friends
this is how the story ends
too bad that you couldn't see
see that man that boy could be
there is more that meets the eye
I see the soul that is inside
He's just a boy, and i'm just a girl
can I make it anymore obvious?
we are in love,
haven't you heard how we rock each others world
I'm with the skater boy,
I said see ya later boy
i'll be back stage after the show
i'll be at a studio
singing the song we wrote
about a girl you used to know...

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My happy ending;; (btw ignore all the ohh-ing lol)

Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oooooh....

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

[Pre-Chorus:]
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it (but we lost it)
All of the memories, so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending (Oh oh, oh oh)

Oh oh, oh oh

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they (So are they)
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do (All the shit that you do)

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there,
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

[Chorus:]
He was everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending...

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
And we were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh....
Oh ooooh....

i will never let you go (:

1:58 AM

Itadakimasu! :3

Dated;;Monday

Okk..Im not Jap…nor do I learn jap =3=”
Kekeke ^-^ Jap exchange students came 2day! ~~Our group~~ Elle ~~adopted~~ Yukaa . Shes soo awshum + cute like us me! LOL. Jks. Bleh xD
…Mite take pics of our group + Yuka ;D I’ll post it…l8er n.n

Miam miam! Mango ice cream sho nice :) Heh heh…I wish we cud get our laptops this term, bh were getting them next [>O<”] meh . -____- Got commerce and maths exame this week! ;o! ;s…I ish so distracted…

I wanna watch dramas + animee + read mangaa! ;DD I will…when I sumthing…KYAA!! Theres a frikking grasshopper in my room! Ah!!! CRAP . Its near my bed!! Ahh!! I lost it . =o=

Nuu! Why does ther hv to be a frikking grasshopper in my bedroom! Kyaa! Kk…well g2g kill an insect . Also, g2g be nerdily…probs will get distracted…;s

For now, I must kill an insect + study . Z.Z lazy…

;o bye!

i will never let you go (: